Trailing Rainbows

“When your world falls apart, find new worlds”

Bo has spent years planning the road trip of a life time with her mother, but when tragedy strikes she drops everything and everyone to begin the trip that will change everything.

Chasing storms and trailing rainbows, Bo must discover her own reasons for living out life even during difficulty.

December 9th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

December 9th

New Orleans has the most vibrant feel to it. It somehow seems that there is more life and more death there than anywhere I've ever experienced. It's like the people have experienced a deeper pain and a greater joy and they're somehow brave enough to share it, to exude it.

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December 2nd
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

December 2nd

I wanted to tell you, too, about the day we met. I wasn't in a good place. Of course, you already know that. You know about Mom, and the desperate grief, and the waves.

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November 25th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

November 25th

What if fever dreams are just portents of the future? What if the muted colors and repeating themes are just an effort on the part of your mind to imprint what's important?

Or are dreams just memories of things that never happened?

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November 18th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

November 18th

We have had some stupid fights in our time, and I would take the stupidest one over the dead silence between my sobs.

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November 11th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

November 11th

I can't help imagining you dancing in the mud and kicking a little bit of it in William's direction when we found the diamond. In my mind's eye you're laughing, and your hair is lit by the sun, and for a moment it would feel like we have forever.

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November 4th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

November 4th

There are people here who love me. They're not you, but you didn't leave me with nothing. You left me with the ability to love and be loved, and I'll be forever grateful. And if none of them get to know you, I'll make sure you're remembered somehow. Not because you're dead, but because you lived. Because you shone with the light of a star, because I revolved around you like the solar system you absolutely deserved.

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October 28th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

October 28th

I have a thought that when I'm done with this road trip, finishing it off with something significant, I'm sure, I'll end up in Oregon or Washington. The call of the gulls and the pounding of the waves can be the background of my life, and when I look back at my life in Colorado, you will be alive in some part if only because I've never lived there when you weren't.

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October 21st
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

October 21st

It's times like these I remember that I want to change the world and make a difference. I want to make sure kids like Hank don't have to worry where their next meal is coming from, and women like Nancy can meet the eye of anyone they see with confidence.

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October 14th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

October 14th

After a terrifying nighttime fire, Bo finds herself in the place she least wants to be, surrounded by the sterile environment of a hospital, caring for a child. Gathering all her courage, Bo must give strength to others when her own is waning.

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October 7th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

October 7th

I usually write a letter to Mom once a week. Don't worry, I'm not crazy. But I do think it might be better for me to write to you sometimes as well. I'm trying to learn to work toward the future instead of dwelling in the past.

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September 30th
Bethany Longwell Bethany Longwell

September 30th

It feels like the last five months has been night, interspersed by the light of the stars. I've been moving forward, searching always for the slow fade of dawn, but it hasn't come. I know grief is this way, walking in darkness till you realize in a sudden moment that the sun's been shining all around you.

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September 23rd
Bethany Longwell Bethany Longwell

September 23rd

“I can see the lost look in your eyes, and whatever happened, or whoever left you to feel this hole in your center, I'm sorry. If you need a reminder that there is a human thinking of you, refer to side one.”

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September 16th
Bethany Longwell Bethany Longwell

September 16th

I wish you could be here to see the big strong men Lucas, Oliver, and Dean have become. I wish you could know them the way I've gotten to know them for the last few days.

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September 9th
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

September 9th

It was such a great experience seeing San Antonio through his eyes. I'm a little sad he doesn't live there anymore. He seems to really care for the city.

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September 2nd
Bethany Jean Bethany Jean

September 2nd

They also have an antique carousel, which was really fun and reminded me of the one I checked out in Albany, Oregon.

I think it's so cool how people have carved these animals for decades, and there's enough love for the history of it that their restoration is taking place.

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August 19th
Bethany Longwell Bethany Longwell

August 19th

This grief I'm barely coping with now is nothing compared to what I would be facing at home. This is an active grief, choosing to stare into the void your death has left in my life. If I'd stayed I would have sunk, and even with Dad there, I don't think anything would have saved me.

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August 12th
Bethany Longwell Bethany Longwell

August 12th

You always believed I should know everything I could. Knowledge gives us the opportunity to make good decisions, and it all starts with the basics.

Astronomy was a good basic for me.

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August 5th
Bethany Longwell Bethany Longwell

August 5th

It was reminiscent of Donovan kneeling and making eye contact with me for the first time. Of Darrah carefully speaking exactly the words she knew I needed to hear.

It was reminiscent of you and me in our best moments, and I was at once jealous and so so glad that Kris has a father like this to help guide her.

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July 29th
Bethany Longwell Bethany Longwell

July 29th

But maybe I should try writing a letter to someone who would write back. I feel like a traitor even thinking it, and I'm not sure who I'd write to at this point. It just seems like the kind of think you're supposed to do when you're traveling. Buy postcards from the tourist traps, scribble notes on them, and send them to relatives.

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